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[Dec 15 08 ` 11 06 pm]
New journal, because I don't know who cares anymore. Less negative, more new and goods. Less poetic little kid babble, more reality.

Well, I’m Fucking Screaming At You

[Dec 15 08 ` 2 37 pm]

This is really Friends Only now.
I changed all of my settings to automatic,
so I can't forget to change the privacy.
So, if you lurk, stalk, or are just too fucking lazy to get a Livejournal, get on it, or get lost.

You Want A Song Of Glory? &; Well, I’m Fucking Screaming At You

[Mar 20 08 ` 8 38 pm]
Oh yeah, I'm not dead. I've just started using another website. Oops. But just to keep things fresh I'll update here cause you don't care about me enough to look elsewheres.

I got my new lolita glasses in the mail and i refuse to take them off. REFUSE. Although they're so dark it's kind of hard to see. That is inconsequential. Although I've been driving a bit lately. I drove to Jason's from my job the other day and I didn't hit a god damned thing!

It's windy and I secretly hope your train crashes.

Fuck this week, man.

St. Patrick's Day was okay.
I ended up hanging out with Britt and that whole scene for a bit and no one drank or did any drugs except for the people who were already sick and dead on the couch when I got there. Joe was adorable though, as aggravating as Britt thinks he is, I am a big sucker for sleepy confused boys waking up.

Schlemmer was there and I don't know how I feel about that kid except I know he scares me and I don't ever want him to touch me. He's about four feet fucking tall with my shit kicker heels on and has little monkey fingers that always want to take my cigarettes from me. But that's not why I don't want him to touch me. It is undisputed that he has some Somalian zombie monkey flesh disease to go with his fingers.

Apparently lots of skateboarders get this disease.

Then I met some adorable short girl who wanted holes in her body so we ended up driving to EVERY tattoo shop in Danbury and the rest of Putnam county to get pierced and piercing equips but nothing was open after 8. We caught Philippe leaving Valle's early to go party and when I finally remembered what day it was. Then I decided that me and Britt needed to drive to Boston right then to find hot Irish skinheads. As if we really need to find them. We called a few people and ended up deciding it wasn't the best idea because we'd arrive at about 1 am when all the drunkards would be leaving bars and we didn't feel like being in a car accident or gagged in a stranger's bathroom in another city.

Jesse says it was dead anyway.

I had to have a really embarrassing conversation with him because my friends think it's appropriate to lie to me to try to make me fit their standards for some image they have of me that's about 50% fiction.

Things that people are not okay with:
1. Me having one boyfriend and not taking advantage of all of the talented people that are into me and being an all around whore about it.

2. Me not being involved with anyone famous right now.

3. Me not having guys write poems or songs or painting or whatever about me.

4. Me not doing drugs or drinking like I used to.

Anyway, I have no friends anymore but I had a really brilliant idea that involves hardcore sex and medical equipment. But I can't tell anyone because I've got to just do it before someone else does.

Also important to bring up again, I AM NOT CHEETARA.

You Want A Song Of Glory? &; Well, I’m Fucking Screaming At You

[Sep 28 07 ` 1 07 pm]
For the Record:


I don't know who or what you are!
And I will not add you until you comment and let me know.
You are henceforth considered creepy. Cheers!

You Want A Song Of Glory? &; Well, I’m Fucking Screaming At You

[Sep 26 07 ` 7 25 pm]
You Want A Song Of Glory? &; Well, I’m Fucking Screaming At You

[Sep 25 07 ` 9 44 am]
Thou shalt not steal if there is direct victim.

Thou shalt not worship pop idols or follow lost prophets.

Thou shalt not take the names of Johnny Cash, Joe Strummer, Johnny Hartman, Desmond Decker, Jim Morrison, Jimi Hendrix or Syd Barret in vain.

Thou shalt not think that any male over the age of 30 that plays with a child that is not their own is a pedophile… Some people are just nice.

Thou shalt not read NME.

Thall shalt not stop liking a band just because they’ve become popular.

Thou shalt not question Stephen Fry.

Thou shalt not judge a book by it’s cover.

Thou shalt not judge Lethal Weapon by Danny Glover.

Thall shalt not buy Coca-Cola products. Thou shalt not buy Nestle products.

Thou shalt not go into the woods with your boyfriend’s best friend, take drugs and cheat on him.

Thou shalt not fall in love so easily.

Thou shalt not use poetry, art or music to get into girls’ pants. Use it to get into their heads.

Thou shalt not watch Hollyoakes.

Thou shalt not attend an open mic and leave as soon as you're done just because you’ve finished your shitty little poem or song you self-righteous prick.

Thou shalt not return to the same club or bar week in, week out just ’cause you once saw a girl there that you fancied but you’re never gonna fucking talk to.

Thou shalt not put musicians and recording artists on ridiculous pedestals no matter how great they are or were.

The Beatles - Were just a band.
Led Zepplin - Just a band.
The Beach Boys - Just a band.
The Sex Pistols - Just a band.
The Clash - Just a band.
Crass - Just a band.
Minor Threat - Just a band.
The Cure - Just a band.
The Smiths - Just a band.
Nirvana - Just a band.
The Pixies - Just a band.
Oasis - Just a band.
Radiohead - Just a band.
Bloc Party - Just a band.
The Arctic Monkeys - Just a band.
The next big thing - JUST A BAND.

Thou shalt give equal worth to tragedies that occur in non-English speaking countries as to those that occur in English speaking countries.

Thou shalt remember that guns, bitches and bling were never part of the four elements and never will be.

Thou shalt not make repetitive generic music

Thou shalt not make repetitive generic music

Thou shalt not make repetitive generic music

Thou shalt not make repetitive generic music

Thou shalt not pimp my ride.

Thou shalt not scream if you wanna go faster.

Thou shalt not move to the sound of the wickedness.

Thou shalt not make some noise for Detroit.

When I say “Hey” thou shalt not say “Ho”.

When I say “Hip” thou shalt not say “Hop”.

When I say "he say, she say, we say, make some noise"
- kill me.

Thou shalt not quote me happy.

Thou shalt not shake it like a polaroid picture.

Thou shalt not wish your girlfriend was a freak like me.

Thou shalt spell the word “Pheonix” P-H-E-O-N-I-X not P-H-O-E-N-I-X, regardless of what the Oxford English Dictionary tells you.

Thou shalt not express your shock at the fact that Sharon got off with Bradley at the club last night by saying “Is it”.

Thou shalt think for yourselves.

And thou shalt always kill.
You Want A Song Of Glory? &; Well, I’m Fucking Screaming At You

[Sep 12 07 ` 6 37 pm]
life is shit I fell apart blah blah blah

I'm moving in 15 days

I bleached my hair so I feel better hahaha I'm so superficially fucked
whenever something goes wrong... blah blah... dye something ...tattoo something ... pierce something and i'm okayer

me and winter decided after watching some anorexic awareness videos that we're gunna stop eating "tomorrow"

People need to learn to keep my name out of their mouths
I don't know you and you don't know me. I have nothing to do with you so save the drama for your momma.

Everyone is doing dumb shit lately and blaming it on me. i have enough dumb shit of my own thank you.

I cut contact with almost everyone unintentionally but only because I'm too fucked up to articulate anything... so don't be mad.

All I have to look forward to in life:
Misfits December 2nd
The End

edit: also, everyone around me is constantly arguing about redundancy. It's uhm. Redundant. So stop it.
You Want A Song Of Glory? &; Well, I’m Fucking Screaming At You

Anecdote [Jun 20 07 ` 1 08 pm]
I only took ecstacy once...Collapse )
You Want A Song Of Glory? &; Well, I’m Fucking Screaming At You

Anecdote [Jun 20 07 ` 12 50 pm]
Another seriously great story. (I have a feeling this is what this journal is going to be for a little while. My myspace blog has because mynew livejournal.)

used to be a big time cokehead. Well, pretty much anything...Collapse )
Well, I’m Fucking Screaming At You

Anecdotes [Jun 20 07 ` 11 34 am]
I'm just collecting other people's stories lately. I don't know why. People usually don't take me seriously when I ask them to tell me a story but I am.

Here's proof, some good ones from the collection, from a couple of friends at the Cult:

#About four months after the other bad date, I was...Collapse )

I got really drunk one night...Collapse )
She was sixteen...Collapse )
Well, I’m Fucking Screaming At You

[Dec 21 06 ` 1 29 am]

I swear to God!

5bye7's new EP is so fucking good. Everyone should buy it for themselves for Christmas.
Well, I’m Fucking Screaming At You

[Dec 20 06 ` 11 31 am]
Unfriended a bunch of people.

I have my reasons. Feel free to ask why.
You Want A Song Of Glory? &; Well, I’m Fucking Screaming At You

[Dec 15 06 ` 1 15 pm]

(This doesn't count for internet strangers, you guys are a hundred percent cooler than most people and I love you idiots)

I'm cutting ties with everyone I know that isn't the best of my best closest friends.

I don't like my life at all right now, concerning most of you.

With the exception of less than half a dozen, you are all liars, cheaters, dirtbags, kiss-asses and predators.

I don't want to be a fucking RESOURCE anymore.

I'm not for fucking lying to, prying out of, or asking to lie. If you wanna make me a bad guy, do it, but do it to my fucking face. 
Don't pretend to be on "my side" because someone out there wants to dick me over.
I don't need a "side", some little army of cheerleading 'friends' to agree with me when they don't mean it
 I need some fuckng honesty.
I'm all I need on my side and the rest of you can fuck off.

You're all still petty fucking high schoolers who are willing to change your stories and attitudes more often than a fucking tampon.

If you want to know me, know me.
If you want to be nice to me, be nice to me.

But don't fucking think I'm stupid, and that I don't have eyes in the back of my head, while you're behind my back telling your stories.

PS: If you need to ask if you're on the good list, you aren't.

You Want A Song Of Glory? &; Well, I’m Fucking Screaming At You

[Dec 13 06 ` 10 48 pm]
You Want A Song Of Glory? &; Well, I’m Fucking Screaming At You

[Dec 13 06 ` 3 14 am]

Screened Comments

Post anything, it's all anonymous. I can't see who, no one else can read.

Secrets, insults, whatever.

About me, about someone else, about yourself, about someone I don't know, I don't give a fuck.

get shit off your chest...

(A side note: I can't respond to comments, or they'll become unscreened. As they're submitted, I'll post friends only replies. Chao, nucks)

Well, I’m Fucking Screaming At You

[Dec 5 06 ` 9 13 am]
Fevral'. Dostat' chernil i plakat'!
Pisat' o fevrale navzryd,
Poka grohochuschaya slyakot'
Vesnoyu chernoyu gorit.

Dostat' proletku. Za shest' griven,
CHrez blagovest, chrez klik koles
Perenestis' tuda, gde liven'
Esche shumnej chernil i slez.

Gde, kak obuglennye grushi,
S derev'ev tysyachi grachej
Sorvutsya v luzhi i obrushat
Suhuyu grust' na dno ochej.

Pod nej protaliny cherneyut,
I veter krikami izryt,
I chem sluchajnej, tem vernee
Slagayutsya stihi navzryd.
Well, I’m Fucking Screaming At You

I Can Spell What You Can't Say [Dec 4 06 ` 5 04 am]
If you hate me, then
fuck you.

haha Skyler nabbed this mad blurry picture of me myspacing with a vengence and I had no clue. Check out the boy's head. When we stand side by side we look like an American Flag now.

I did it all by myself, you cant stop meCollapse )
Well, I’m Fucking Screaming At You

[Nov 19 06 ` 4 24 am]
I'm not one to advocate the smoking of marijuana, cause personally, I think it turns people fucking stupid, but my friend just bought an O of weed and found a fucking GREEN BEAN in it. I've examined, and it is, no doubt, in fact a little tiny GREEN BEAN

You Want A Song Of Glory? &; Well, I’m Fucking Screaming At You

[Nov 13 06 ` 6 48 pm]
Request a picture of anything in my daily life
anything at all
and i'll take it.
You Want A Song Of Glory? &; Well, I’m Fucking Screaming At You

[Nov 12 06 ` 6 12 am]
I got a new inhaler today


Niggas are always fucking annoying me. I want to live in the jungle instead
You Want A Song Of Glory? &; Well, I’m Fucking Screaming At You

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